Almost 20 days, since you are struggling and fighting for your life, and the news is mixed, sometimes is good news, or we perceive it as such, and sometimes is bad, or they say it is bad, or we perceive as bad.
Another complication appear, and I felt like this was too much for us, and I am sure for you too.
This is mostly what I am wondering about now. I wonder how are you, and what are you thinking? I just want to have a post solely around thoughts and feelings, no medical information.
Seems like patients in your condition experience some feelings that are terrifying, and this is only from reading some articles. I hope you are the exception, and I pray for this.
I honestly pray and wish that you would focus only on getting better and exiting, i pray that for the moments when you feel the desperation and the fear, that you find a way through God, us or something else to move away from those terrible feelings.
I wonder what kind of positive feelings you could have while being submitted to different procedures, and while not being able to breathe on your own, and just being stuck to a bed...with no ability to do anything.
I struggle to find a positive feeling right now. I think HOPE, this is the only one that can grab you and like a drug can take you further including in dreaming with you eyes wide open. Hope is the feeling that can get you away from all the other bad things, so I pray that HOPE will be your ally, and that it will be everywhere in your mind.
That no matter what you would do, the Hope should not give you rest. You should just continue to hope that things will get better and they will. We are all praying for a miracle, and because you are one, and your life is one, we do have faith that you living can be another one.
So push through this, and have an infusion for hope, so that no vessel can be refilled with something else. Please ... while you find hope, God will be there as well, and he will bring peace and love with the hope, and that is what I pray, that in all of what is happening and is not little, i pray that you could start with hope, filling in all your painful areas both physically and emotionally and spiritually and all the rest.
Is a lesson for us as well, so let's reunite together, and choose Hope, like a way of living, and not an on off button.
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