About seasons in my life

 I am attending a conference as I am writing this post, and it is about the season of your life. 

Basically the question is are Single, Dating, Engaged or Married. 

Till now I have always been in the first season, or very rarely in the second one. I am curious about the 3rd and 4th of course. 

But somehow it did not happen for me, till date. Sometimes I doubt it will ever happen, but as I can not predict the future, I am not able to say with certainty. 

Being in the second season is very nice, you feel loved and appreciated, and everyone tries to impress you in a way, and treats you very nice, like you are so so special. It is a good season to be in, but perhaps just for a while, and it is better to continue with the following one, and not return to the first one. 

In my case was exactly this, on repeat. 2nd, 1st and then repeat. Till some years back, from when I am just in the 1st one. It seems like I am not able to change the gear and be in any of the other ones. 

The question is what does this make me feel? Often times not so well, but sometimes ok, and not really being so worried. As I am not getting any younger perhaps still being in the 1st season is not very encouraging, and it also makes be target for various comments such as...what is wrong with her, or why she is not able to meet someone, or she is nice but ...

I know I am the kind of girl, she is nice and interesting but....And I am very much aware of my but, however I am not doing much to change it , and become the girl that everyone would accept for a 2nd or 3rd or even 4th season. 

Willing to learn more about what is coming ... and where my life will head. 

Perhaps I ll be always in Season 1, and that is ok, as long as I worship the One that gave me the season. 

Perhaps I ll reach Seson 4, and that is ok too, as long as I continue to worship Him. 

The interesting fact is that there is a Season 5, that I want to be for sure in, and that season is not played here on earth, but rather somewhere else, on a "planet" far far away. 

I am interested and longing for this Season, Season 5 :).

Butterflies in the making

 With the first wave of Spring, I am finding myself on a path of making again butterflies, and I am pleasantly surprised that I still have this capacity. 

Things are moving rapidly despite the pandemic environment that we are still in. It seems that we all manage to prioritize what is important for us: people, hobbies, activities etc. 

I am not as special not to do the same, so I have prioritized the same, and I was blessed enough to have some great weekends with very dear friends and their children. 

But also...like it was not a great enough day, things continued and I had a lovely evening in a great company. This was an unexpected gift from above, and it demonstrated that when you are a bit courageous the response back....is a very nice one. 

So after all of that, I am just day dreaming and finding reasons everywhere for something that is nowhere yet. I am just like every other woman. The moment that I find the ability to "groom" butterflies I actually do it. 

It is a very nice feeling to realize the rush of emotions, and the blood going up and down through your body. But logic should come first, or at least this is how I have imaged it should be. 

Seems like imagination versus reality does not always match, so here I am with all the rush of emotions, very new for me, specially if it comes to naming them, and pretty exciting about what is next. 

The ball is rolling, and I hope, and pray that the sun will shine on my lane as well, so that I can cherish and enjoy the heat coming from the rays.