Milan Italy

Here I am in Milan Italy, where I had a tough week and now is over. Of course I will have the time to go in details later on , for now i just want to think a little bit on paper, on how this week was from a sentimental point of view. Actually meeting again someone you liked a lot is not that easy, hence is something that happened for me this week. Very interesting mix of feelings, not necessary like they were one time. But when competition comes along I do realise that something is still there, pride? or not sure how to define this. Actually the meeting went even further, and I had the chance to actually be closer to him, and guess what? feelings were not there anymore. What is a surprise, is that my thoughts are going towards another person...... To be continued.

Fall in Cluj...

Time is passing so fast. It seems like only yesterday i was in another place, it seems like i ve just came back to my old life. But still, time has no mercy, so there are almost 5 months since I am back in Cluj. There good things and bad things, but overall I know I should not even dare to complain. I have a great team in the work. I have fantastic people, very energized and that is the thing that gives me motivation to fight more. This team is growing and improving under my eyes. It is an amazing feeling. Besides that I ve restarted with the music lessons so basically I am back in the school of art and besides that I have 2 hours per week canto lessons with a good friend of mine. What can I say? It seems like my life is slowly being painted, by me, and the people that surround me. Interesting though is the fact that despite that I have so many persons around me, I do not have real friends, I do not feel like I am opening myself as I should, to anyone, and this is not at all good. The reality as a good friend of mine was saying is that I so full and involved in my work within the company I work for, that I do not realize that life is so much more. Indeed at a clear brain level I do know that is just work, but through my behavior and my interests , I am still confirming that my job defines me, and it is my life. I do not know how to change or challenge this. I believe if I had someone special in my life, than the job will go into the second place, but until then, I just can not leave it. Also the life in church is not as it used to be again. Because apparently is no longer my priority. And I am not sure how this happened ( i suppose it was in czech rep) that me and God are somehow apart, and I am not making enough efforts to fix this gap. What else? It is not a positive note. It looks more like a cry for help ;) I am not depressed or melancholic I am just concerned a little bit. I am sharing some pictures from the last 5 months:)