The right prayer - the river that was waiting to flow

 It was an amazing weekend, from all perspectives. What my eyes have seen, the beauty that God created, and the emotions I have felt...just contributed for this gratefulness feeling that fills me since Sunday when I came back to Cluj . 

Had the chance to connect with so many people this weekend, and not to connect, but rather to re connect, cause I have not seem them in a while. Nice people. 

But of course there was one, that was more special to me than any other. And I got some quality time with him. The story around this post is not a romantic story about two people, is rather a romantic story, between one girl and her Father. 

I did not grew up in a normal family. I did not have the chance to grow up having a father near me, and being used to what does that mean, and how he can protect you and guard you from all dangers. 

I was always with my mum, or since I was older I was mostly on my own. Until 10 years ago, when I got adopted. Yes, you can get adopted even when you are older. 

And I was adopted by the greatest family ever. The family of Jesus Christ. And now I have a Heavenly Father that is up there looking and guarding my interest. But, as it seems from this weekend, I am not able to comprehend what He can do for His daughter. And I am surprised and field with emotions. 

Because of different things that happened this week, or things that I thought happened, I just accumulated a lot of emotions in my stomach, emotions that I did not know how to process. And when I finally reached home, and I started to process them in prayer, I realized that I am so overwhelmed to the art of the possibility. It seems like there is something happening, and a blessing is very close to come. Or at least that is how I sensed it. 

I was wrong before, not one time, but many more. However this time, is different. Not sure if different is good or bad, if the blessing will come or not, if it is a blessing or not....but something is different, and the experience is more spiritual than physical. 

All of this is so new for me, so I am trying to grasp it. Nevertheless, I just felt like when I was praying these emotions where making room and coming up to the surface...and then tears appear. And these tears, where just not stopping, and they were not tears of sadness or joy, they were just tears of overwhelming, to the fact that my Father, who already did so much for me, is thinking or He is so personally involved in my life, and He wants to bless me in this way as well. 

And that is...just too much for me. At least for now, this is how it feels, like I can not imagine, that my Father, God will add another blessing to my life that is already blessed by Him. 

That humbles me, moves me so so deeply, and makes me just gaze and admire the Father that I have, and the Greatness that He has, in thinking and helping me in all these small things. 

I trust Him that through all of this He is preparing a new season for me: 

Reconnect and connect

 Last weekend I enjoyed a wonderful trip in a Romanian Village, in a very small place called Prod. 

This was my first time there, and to be honest, I think it was the first time ever in such a place, like in a real village. As I did not have any grandparents who lived in the country side, I have never discovered how living in a village looks like. 

Until this particular weekend, where indeed I felt like going back to basics. 

And the surprise was...that I really enjoyed it! 

It was very small, and very quiet, and outside everything was green, and surrounded by a very nice atmosphere of peace and quiet. The neighbors and people from the village were very nice to us, and they always said hello, and waved at us, even if we were mostly travelling by car. 

Coming and going back to the village was a different experience every time. There is a need to cross a forest, and go up on a hill, it was very very nice. 

What I enjoyed as well was the music that we were hearing in the morning, and I loved the fire in the fireplace. I learnt how to do the fire myself, it was very nice and it was so interesting. 

All in all it was such a nice time , and I was able to relax and to connect!

Celebration time - 10

 03rd April 2021

  I have added a title as this day is the most important day of my life. Some people say the most important day of their life, is when they were born, or when they first fell in love, or when they got married, or had their first baby...and for them it might be the truth. But for me, the most important day of my life is the day when I followed the heart, and choose a different life, and decided to follow a certain Person. 

Since that day, 10 years ago, my life has been a rollercoaster of events, and I am grateful for each of them. I am living the life differently, aware about the fact that life is just a short window of our present existence, while when this will end, there will be a permanent existence in a different form, but for sure a better one. 

I try to live my life, in such a way that I can get small glimpses of how that life will be like, and trying to get ready for that. 

10 years have gone so fast! I vaguely remember those days when I decided to follow through this decision, I had so many thoughts and questions, but in the end I did it, and I am happy! 

So this is me celebrating a decade of my new life!!!