Cause i had a bad day...

so i had a bad day.
now is gone but i actually felt it.
it was deception mixed with angry, frustration and other small and strange feelings.
it is unique how God make things happen or not happen. When i was ready to move to another stage of my life, and i finally found again the courage to say what is on mi mind it seems that everybody had the same instictint in sharing what was in their minds. So everything has changed. I received a information which i was not expected to receive, and i just had a shock i guess:)
Anyway, now a day has passed over and all is ok.
I now know how the things are and what i need to do, which is actually nothing, just focus on my job, and my life, and fine equilibrium :)

Basically this is my bad day.
Not sure yet why God did the things in this way, but i am sure that He knows the right paths for me.

Thank you!

Back to my home in Lublin

Yesterday i reached home, after 2 weeks of well spent holiday. One of my friends here in Poland prepared a surprise for me. When i came the house was spotless so i just took a shower and went to bed. Not for long though, as it seems that the insomny is back with me once i am in Poland. I woke up at 5 o clock in the morning :).
I met my dog at 07 o clock and then we went back to sleep as we were both tired.
I am happy to be back in a way but i am missing home and family and all my friends.
This two weeks were great, i ve meet my friends on a daily basis and we had a lot of fun.
:)
Things are still not clear for me from diffrent aspects, however i am sure that i will find the right way.
In the meanwhile, it feels strange being alone again.
16 months to go:)

Smell and taste of vacation

Hello hello
it's been a long time since i had time to come back at my blog and write my thoughts down. Well i was pretty busy enjoying my vacation!!!!!!!
And it is great. So i had in Poland some of my friends visiting, 2 girls and one guy and we had an amazing time together: sightseeing, joking, having fun and not least worshipping God. There were 3 incredible days in Lublin.
Then we took the car and we went to a beutiful place here in Poland which is Krakow. And this city is amazing. There is so much beauty and history in one place that we where thrilled. We saw the castle, and the old city and we took a walk with the horses :). It was such a nice time and a great weather.
We found a good place to sleep and we had good rest and then in the morning we went to Auschwitz, where things are a little bit shocking for everyone i guess.
Although i was impressed about the size of the camp and the museum, and i was also touched by the things that happened there, there is also something in my heart that i do not really understand. People go to this place to visit and see, and they are all shocked about what happened. But on the other side even today in hospitals, and prisons there are still such things happening. Clearly not in the way or number as there, but still doctors are testing medicines on people, and still in prisons there are diffrent things happening, and still the society didn't learn any lessons. And this is what bugs me.

However, it is an interesting place to see, full of history.
After this visit we started our trip back to Romania, and the view was fantastic. Mountains, sun, clouds, all was green, and i was thinking to myself: OAO God You are AMAZING. All that my eyes see here it was made by your hand. And i felt happy :)
After a 13 hours drive we reached Cluj tired but happy, i came home and i met my family and my dog HAPPY :)
And since then i am meeting friends on a daily basis, and it is great to be back :)
I love it here on holiday!
I did not open my work computer yet, and it is almost a week since i am home. This is new for me:)
And i am happy.
Sunday in church was great, i missed being part of my church where everyone speaks romanian. My pastor was very happy to see me and this was a big joy for me.
Monday in 7 days i will go back to Lublin,
Vacation will be over for the moment.
Anyway hope that I will find time for another post during this period.

See ya later:)

Office office office

Good morning,
It is 11:14, the time in Lublin Poland and i am in office, in a call, GB call:).
I presented my project and all is ok, people kind of liked it i think.
Starting tomorrow i am officialy in holiday, for 11 days :) OAO. And my friends are coming in tomorrow, and we will visit Lublin and Cracow and the surrounding :). And then i am going to ROMANIA. I am going home for holiday, GREAT.

I will spend time with my dog Happy, and with my family and friends. Only sad thing is that my polish dog Joy will remain here in Lublin with one of my friends.

Anyway i will keep up with the postings,

Have a great day!

A cloud for Mozart

Two weeks ago i was taking my daily walk with my sweet dog Joy, and i took the camera with me as i wanted to take her some pictures, which i did. While we were sitting on the green grass, i noticed something really interesting. I guess everybody, especially girls love clouds. Well, i am one of the persons who often likes to sit in silence and watch the white clouds on the blue sky and imaginge, imagine and imagine. when i look at the clouds, i am thinking about their form, about that they are in God Kingdom, and that they are a miracle of the creation.
The cloud that i have seen that day, remind me of a wonderfull man Mozart.
Take a look! Was it only my imagination or this cloud really looks like him.
Would be interesting to have some comments on this post :D

Relaxing relaxing and relaxing

Hi again,
it s me again:) my sweet dog is home, and we are both relaxing on the balcony. she is lying on the floor, looking at the green grass and at some kids that are playing, and I am here writing about my day. The weather is beautiful, the sky is blue, there are big and puffy white clouds, and i just love them. I have today 05 th of June 2 months since i am in Lublin Poland. What can i say? Do i like it? Often this comes into my mind, and i do not know what should i answer. Do i like it? i am not sure. Sometime i do and sometimes not, so is this showing that i am not decided? or that i am unhappy?
I am thinking to do a list with likes and not likes for Lublin and for my situations:
LIKES:
- i have a nice appartment
- my workplace is nice
- i have good salary
- i have a dog
- i have a church
- i have guitar lessons
- i leave 5 min away from my job
- my landlords are really nice
- Anna P is a real friend
- my boss is ok
- my friends are coming to visit me
- i have nice neighbours
- i leave office at 16: 30 no overtime:D
- i speak on the phone everyday with my mother and sister

NOT LIKES:
- i miss my family and friends
- sometimes i feel lonely
- i do not have a lot of friends
- sometimes i get angry at work
- i miss my other dog

So clearly the list with LIKES is bigger that the one with NOT LIKES, so i guess i like it here in Poland:). Basically i am learning to be independent, to clean my house, to cook, to take care of my dog, to face all my fears, to get closer to God, to make new friends, and so on.
I guess this is an opportunity.
I just want to be able to see it like that even when i am not in a good mood.

And i want to be able to thanl God for this opportunity of being in a forreign country, and being WELL, and happy.
Lord, i take this opportunity to THANK YOU once again, for all your gifts to me. I am amazed by the work that you are doing in my life. You take care of all my needs, from the simple ones such as food and water to the more complicated ones. Thank you Lord for being my Father, and thank you for having patience with me.

In the name of Jesus.
Amin!

Lonely weekend

This weekend my dog is with one of my friends, as i am going back home for holiday and she will spend these weeks in the house of my friends as she is not ready to travel to Romania. So we decided that she needs to have a weekend in her temporary house, so this was the weekend.
Yesterday i was pretty lonely without my Joy:(, but today she will be back so i am very happy :) is going to be very good to have her back as i missed her soo much.
anyway i realised this weekend that it was a good idea having this dog, as it feels very strange again to leave alone in a 2 room apartment.

So Joy ...welcome back!!

kiss kiss