Happy birthday to you!

A day I used to wait for and planned for to be and spent with you. Even if I was far away or around Cluj I would plan for us getting together and doing something nice to celebrate your birthday. And today I am still with the same expectation, but without you and without being able to do a lot for this, as you are not here. 

47 years old. This would have been your age today, and instead the aging process stopped back in January 2022. I am trying to accept that you are really gone for ever. Part of me can not accept the fact that you are gone, for ever.  

You are deeply missed my dear Raluca, and we all would like for the things to have happened differently and to get more time with you, and with each other. 

Love you , 4 ever! 

Goodbye my friend - Joy!

 One love, one heart - my heart - Joy

Born in March 2011 - 12 June 2023 

My sweet dog said goodbye to us this morning after a difficult night with challenges in breathing. 

She was one good dog we had the privilege to own, she was loving and stubborn, playful and beautiful dog.

She was our dear friend, no, she was actually a family member. 

She is dearly missed already, although only hours have passed since her departure. 

I wonder if there is a Heaven for pets, I hope it is the same one, and we will be reunited when we will all get there. 

I want everyone to experience the love of a dog, the love of this dog Joy. 

You will never be forgotten! JOY.

June - 2023

 I am becoming more and more lazy. Or I do not prioritize well my time. Or simply I have nothing else to say, i am poor in words and in expressing myself here, in writing. 

It is June, the beautiful month of Summer, a special month for me, for many reasons, but one in particular, her birthday. 

It is hard not to think about her, and not to miss her. And this is what i usually do, specially when I approach a white paper. The only thing I want to write about is her, the only thing I want to remember is her. All the rest does not really matter. 

I wonder if I am the only one that is experiencing grief like this, or if other people are doing this similarly to me. Sometimes I feel i am weak for experiencing loss to such an extend, but I am not able to experience it differently. 

I struggle with acknowledging her loss, and I am running away into my travels...so many, that I can not count. 

Well maybe this is the time for travels. 

I hope you travelled well my darling!

Love you always!!!