Hmm...

New day, new week, still alone.
It is very interesting, how people mind works. You can find motivation every day for being alone; you can see different sides of the problem, that you are alone, independent and all, but someday it will just hit you, out of nowhere, that you are actually ALONE.
When will this feeling pass? How people without families get use to this? When i will understand that this is something normal, and it is not so bad? I hope soon, cause it is not that easy.
I am now in Poland for almost 6 months (with 2 travels to home), and i still have 13 months to go, and i can not say that i am used to be alone. I am not. I miss my family, i miss my friends, i miss having friends:(.
Anyway, i need to adapt. But what is adaptations? Of course i feel adapted to Poland as i am alone! I have no friends:) so how can i not be adapted, interesting no ??? :)
I should go out and eat in the city. Hmm what will my dog say. My dog is a dog, she should not say anything.
So???
What will it be?

I am still deciding.
Anyway...i am out

Decision point

Good evening,
August is a lovely month, and it seems that things have settled for me here in Poland. However it seems that God is not willing to let me stay without any professional challenges.
So time of decision is here again, but this is not my decision i guess. It is strange, and i do not understand why these things are happening now.
I am very stressed, and it seems that the sensation is not willing to go away. I have a terrible head pain , it is like i have been drinking all night, but i did not :(
I know God will find a way, so please God help me out here.
Thank you!