Almost there. As I am writing this post I am still 39, but I will finish it when I will be already 40, which is great! I did not manage to finish this post, and I am already 40 years old and 10 days, so I hope is not so so late.
It was great to celebrate my 40st birthday, it feels like my life is just beginning, and I am very happy and grateful for that. I have managed to finally fly my mother to Bucharest, so she took her first trip with an airplane, and it was great, she enjoyed it, although for her it was a bit tiring in Bucharest, due to the many activities we had.
I have also passed my exams to the Economical studies and I am so grateful for that. I have a degree in Economical science, it is a very big achievement, considering where I am coming from.
It was such a stressful period, and I am so grateful that in the end I did it, and now I am just waiting for my diploma. Thankful and blessed for the many resources I had and for this achievement.
On top of this I had a cool and beautiful party, which was planned to be 40@40 - 40 people at my 40st birthday. In the end I did not manage to meet the numbers as there were more than 40 people, but it was still my birthday, and it was a great party.
It started the night before with some girlfriends that were helping me with the background and all, and it was a night full of fun and joy. We made crafts, we ate good food and cakes, we had balloons, we talked and they prayed for me, it was really amazing. I am so blessed and grateful to have such girls in my life, that love me and surround me with care and compassion.
The day of the party I had everything planned, good food, good cake , music and the best people, the ones close to my heart, my family and my friends. I was very relaxed, I did not stress that much, but it was really warm. My prayers were heard for no rain, so it did not rain at all.
The party was very chill, i received cool gifts, and everyone seemed to have a nice time. Not so many activities, but at the same time, not so many boring moments, when nothing was happening.
People had a chance to reconnect with one another, so i think they really enjoyed it.
Of course, colleagues from work were present as well, and they really enjoyed it.
I liked the fact that everyone had a small gang, so i did not need to entertain anyone. I relaxed as well, talking to some people, trying to see if everyone was ok, normal stuff i guess.
My mum had also a nice time, she seemed pretty happy and relaxed with her two friends, so I was really grateful for that.
My favorite moment was the end of the party, when people left, and only around 10 friends remained, and i could finally feel the freshness of the evening and open a beer, and simply relax and take it all in.
It was a perfect celebration, and a corner stone into my life, I am 40 :). And fabulous.
My heart is not so fabulous. I am still thinking about her, and missing her. I wish she was here with me for this celebration, she was missing for me, and for others I am sure.
I sometimes hear her voice encouraging me, or telling me that I am wrong, or fighting with me on different topics.
I miss her so much, in all the things. Grief is not going away, you just learn to live with it, and to carry its burden. Sister I love you, now when I am 40, before and for ever. You were my person, the one that always had my back. There is no one else like you, and this is tough.
Wish you were here, not just for my birthday but for ever! I'll never forget you!
Pictures from the day , speak more than words:
