Balance

Well now i have almost 4 weeks since i am back in Cluj Romania, and things are getting better and better every day. I can say i am getting used to my life and job, friends or lack of friends:) Well such is lif- sometimes you have friends, sometimes you do not. I still have the friends in Romania, but it seems like i miss the people in Poland. Interesting how you connect with people after you are not longer in the same place. It is not easy for me to be back in the old gang, when i am missing Lublin. I have some options, the rich gang which is hanging around at different famous places, and of course very expensive places, and i have the other gang, which is more modest, but somtimes is just boring, so i would want more enterteinement. Maybe i should try to know new people, and then my thirst of friends/my social life will flourish. Not that i am complainig... Now that i am writing i remembered something. I should not search for friends in the wrong places, i should be more focused in the church. By the way, today i was soo lazy that i did not went to church, well obviously this will not help me at all. So i should be focused and not miss church cause there is the place, where i should invest in order to find nice and good friends. Other than that, it s been a long time since i am alone, and i ve been alone. So let s say that part of me still would like to get involved with someone, even for a short time, which is not at all a good idea, as i will end up hurt and regreting. So i need to put my guard up, and move out of this stage of doubts, cause i do not need anyone on my side to feel good. I am a strong woman, career oriented, who has God on her side. So i should wait... and i will. Those are my thoughts in a warm summer sunday

Bitter sweet

Well i am here and as though as i was expecting this and waiting for this, it seems like still somtehing is missing. I am not sure whator why i feel like this. I came back i received a promotion and everyone is happy that i am back. And still i am looking back to my life in Poland, i was not expecting to miss that like this. It is very strange....i think i am in somekind of a depression, in which i can not find myself or my will to enjoy life, But starting Monday I will be back, full of energy, on a diet, soo, just energized to make the life worthed. I need to find myself, i am good, healthy ( almost) and in the professional area everything is going well... so why should i be discouragged? I also need God these days, cause i am very far from Him, so tomorrow i will be in church, and i will re- start to build my relation with Him, i believe that this is why i am like this. So let s see. Challenge accepted. Starting Monday a new me, and new opportunities ready to be taken. God please stand by me, as i am not able to do a single step withouth you. Thank you!

Back for good

Above is a very nice picture from July, picture which was taken at a very nice location near Orastie, Romania. Well it was a teambuilding with the colleagues from office, and it seems like i never left. Relations are still there, some friends, and good colleagues. It was a very nice time, relaxing and fun. I am just posting one picture just to have a nice reminder of this time. To be continued...

New era...

29:) yeah I am now 29 years old, since almost a week, and my life again is turning. For those of you who were following my thoughts, or just for me, i am back in Cluj, and here is where i will be for the near future. Somehow i miss Poland, i miss my independency and i miss my free space, and the dream full of challenges which i ve lived there. But that does not mean i can not live my dream here. And this is what i want to do next. I want to live my dream here, in my house withmy family, and with my friends. I am suprised that my friends are still here, of course with some changes, but in the end they are still there. I was amazed that on my birthday i had 146 wishes on my Facebook wall. I know it is just Facebook, but somehow it makes me feel like I ve touched those people in a way. Work is fine, challenges are there as well, and with His help i am sure i will overcome them. What i like currently are the relations which i have and my friends. I am amazed that after 1.5 years people are still there on my side, and not just any people, the special ones, the ones that kept me stronger whern i was far away in my darkness experiences and all. I like and love my friends, and i know somehow this can be a weakness. But guess wha, i am willing to be weak. in regards to prince charming, still not apearing at the horizon yet. Although...i am somehow waiting. And that is all for today, Blessings,