Balance

Well now i have almost 4 weeks since i am back in Cluj Romania, and things are getting better and better every day. I can say i am getting used to my life and job, friends or lack of friends:) Well such is lif- sometimes you have friends, sometimes you do not. I still have the friends in Romania, but it seems like i miss the people in Poland. Interesting how you connect with people after you are not longer in the same place. It is not easy for me to be back in the old gang, when i am missing Lublin. I have some options, the rich gang which is hanging around at different famous places, and of course very expensive places, and i have the other gang, which is more modest, but somtimes is just boring, so i would want more enterteinement. Maybe i should try to know new people, and then my thirst of friends/my social life will flourish. Not that i am complainig... Now that i am writing i remembered something. I should not search for friends in the wrong places, i should be more focused in the church. By the way, today i was soo lazy that i did not went to church, well obviously this will not help me at all. So i should be focused and not miss church cause there is the place, where i should invest in order to find nice and good friends. Other than that, it s been a long time since i am alone, and i ve been alone. So let s say that part of me still would like to get involved with someone, even for a short time, which is not at all a good idea, as i will end up hurt and regreting. So i need to put my guard up, and move out of this stage of doubts, cause i do not need anyone on my side to feel good. I am a strong woman, career oriented, who has God on her side. So i should wait... and i will. Those are my thoughts in a warm summer sunday