Funny ideas

The funny ideas start running through my mind. I am sure that the blog will be used excessively in the next period. It helps. It helps adding my thoughts on a blank page, it helps my mind to relax and think rationally.
I am an emotional person, and it s a realization I ve made a very short time ago. My emotions are the ones triggering my actions. I know is not very wise, but this is who i am.
A hard period is in front of me, I know i ll do my best to overcome it, successfully and much closer to God.

I know your there
I hear your voice
Your hand embraces me
And I m yours

You are my Father
I do belong
Please help me cherish
The grace I hold

Because of You
I ll live forever
I ll stay with You
And love you more

But please embrace me
In these times of worry
And let me stay forever
Into your mighty Hand

Here I go again

I am missing the posts, and transparency and the opportunity of stopping the time and just writing.
Is the final countdown, this time is a countdown for the next 365 days that I ll spend in the capital of Romania Bucharest.
In normal circumstances I would be very excited about such a career opportunity, new role, new challenge and in the center of the country. But...I m not.
I am personally messed up. The question that goes back and forth in my mind is Why? Why i need to leave now, when things are getting a new shape, a shape of something that I really like.
i am still not fully facing what will happen, I am keeping these thoughts on the back of my head, just to be able to eliminate them in case something happens, and I ll stay in Cluj.
There is nothing that can change this unfortunatelly, I would need to go and complete my task and responsability.
Maybe is better like this, maybe what is happening now is not the right way to have the things done, for sure there are better ways. At the same time, maybe there is a risk of suffering if i stay here in Cluj, maybe i ll get emotionally attached and then....if not everyone feels the same, I ll have a bigger issue.
We will see, I ll face this reality tomorrow, as today, i m craving to be HAPPY :)

Happiness

I can say I am happy these days, I can say i see the sky and sun and everything that matters.
I can say that i have peace with my family, and the atmosphere si better then never.
I can say i am surrounded by people who care about me, I can say i have a good job and life is good.
Not only i can say, but i want to scream from a mountain that I am happy.
I want to celebrate this time of being happy and fulfilled.
There is one thing missing, but I trust that He will make a way.
Currently i can only say that time is not enough, not enough for words, or thoughts or jokes or anything.
How will this develop further?
What will happen?
Here were i would like to be able to see the future, but i am not. I can only see NOW, and i need to be thankful for that as well.
I am looking forward to see how will look the next chapter of my life.
Until then.... I will trust in you!!!!