03rd April 2020 - 9 years

I postponed this note for a while now, almost one week, and i m not very sure why, i think it was mainly because of lack of prioritization, or maybe there was something deeper i do not know. 

Anyway, is that time of the year when I can celebrate the fact that i am 9 years old. 

I am happy for that, it has been great living a different life in all these years, but at the same time, as i grow, i realize that there is nothing that I can do to equal the sacrifice that was made for me. 

It is all through Grace, through that Amazing Grace, that touched me as well. 

I am still a sinner, and i think that is even worst than before, because now i know the Truth, and i should live in the Truth, and still i am not. 

Is a journey of becoming more like Him, it is a choice that we make day by day, to continue to live for Him, and whenever we fall, we need to raise our hands, ask for forgiveness and continue on the same path. 

I thought my 9th year would be celebrated differently, with more achievements, with a sense of pride or self control. But now more then ever, seems like i celebrate it with humility, and realizing how small I am in the circle of things, and how honored i should be cause i am in the Greatest Family of all. 

If i had a cake with candles, and if i had a wish, i would wish for more wisdom in decisions, and for taking only decisions that would honor Him, and follow His will not mine. 

Isolation ...continues

Across the world there is a lot of fear and frustration pilling up. Fear because people are in isolation, quarantine, cities are locked down to fight this pandemic. Frustration because it feels like there is nothing active that we can do in this battle. We are just asked to step away from the way of this virus and to try to protect our families, and dear ones, by keeping them away from this. Also, we feel like our hands are tied, and we can not help the medical services, and the nurses and doctors and all the people that are out in the streets fighting this.
What can we say in this period?
Are we called to be angry? are we called to be frustrated?
I think not. I think we are calmed to keep our balance, protect our family, and rejoice in a time where we can invest in things that we have had no time for. Now i am sure that everywhere the message is the same.
But as a person who is struggling with this, and one that is very active and now feels like is being shut  down, i dare all of us to see this as a challenge to fix our broken self's and the broken things in our families and our wider relationships.
And this is a time to meet God...so those who do not know Him this is a time to meet Him and challenge Him around why is this happening, and those who know God is a time to bow in prayer , worship Him and ask Him to help us fight this.
I think is a period of grace that we are living, and this is 2020, a year full of blessings , but blessings that perhaps come in disguise through a pandemic. The Earth is finally breathing, everyone is spending time with their families, children feel more loved than in any other times, and all of this happens across the Earth, and with very little resources....let us meditate to this.

Heaven is a place on Earth?