Closing comments...for now

I just took a moment to go through some of the posts from the past.

And i ve realized that i was under lot of stress when i was in Lublin and I was feeling very lonely.

The same thing happen to me here in Cluj

I find myself feeling lonely even if i have my friend in the same city or at a phone call away.

I miss the privacy and independence of my apartment in Lublin.

I miss just being myself and Joy.

I know i am selfish and ungrateful, but here in my home I lack space, intimacy and privacy

I am waiting for something but i m not sure even for what. I ve said i ll move out but it looks like i am not strong enough to do this

I ve said i ll buy a house, not even that i am able to do so far

So what should I do?

I m not sure yet.

I ll carry on with the prayer, is a little bit ironic, the entire situation:)

Good night! 

Germany reminder - my family

In one of the posts on this blog I am mentioning about how I found my brother on Facebook, and how since then we are trying to keep in touch regularly.
I am very happy that this happened, and I am very happy to know that besides my family here in Cluj I have a brother and a sister in law, in Hamburg Germnay.
And actually this year in June was the first time, I got to spend sometime with them, and it was an amazing experience.
To see how much we look alike, to see the similitude's face to face, and even in small things, was something that I ve never expected.
My sister in law is just GREAT - she is the glue that keeps everyone together.
My only regret was not having this opportunity earlier , when we were kids here in Cluj, and of course not being able to meet my father, and know him better
Is something that I would have liked a lot
But enough with sad thoughts|:)
In Hamburg I had the chance to see his 2nd show in my life Faust - which was amazing, and below the special moments we ve shared:

Here I go again...memories from Athens

End of July temperature in Cluj Napoca is getting higher and higher. And so are the complexities of life. Sometimes I just wish to go back when i was just a child and things were so simple.
But unfortunately I do not owe a time machine so is kind of impossible to go back in time. Not much left to do besides trying to live your life and enjoy it as much as you can.
Here is where there is a decision point and a discussion around how each and every one chooses to live their own life.
I had a discussion with someone very dear to me, about God and religion, and her concern was that God is asking us only to live the life within the agreed parameters, so there are rules, and besides that there is nothing.
So are we wasting your life by following God or not?
I see around lots of people making sacrifices for those who they love and some for God. Is it wrong to sacrifice for the loved ones? Or is it better to sacrifice for God?
Well again a meditative question, to which in some days I believe is God what matters, while in others i have second thoughts.
Enough with the challenging topics, to the fun part I would say
And the fun this week would be my return from Athens the capital of Greece, where it was very very nice, and amazing city. I ve enjoyed the time there, and the evenings,  but i ve realized that all my evenings ended with something interesting. I m not sure why? But it seems like a connect is building again between some people, and i m not even sure if this is a healthy connect or is just playing with fire.
The discussion is the same in the end, i am 30 now, and still there is nothing interesting coming my way. I m wondering how much time i need to wait further?
Well until i have an answer on this, i ll keep living the days....

Happy Birthday to me ....30st Birthday!!

Well i know it is already 55 minutes past my birthday, but i am happy that i am taking a note at least in the same week or month, as again it s been a long time since i ve written on the blog.

All well at my end, just aging another year, or just singing some songs about getting older and older.

Lots of presents for my birthday, but the thing i m very happy about, is for seeing some mountains this weekend:)
Although it was a very short break and a part time working thing, I ve enjoyed a  lot seeing the green nature and the sun.

But again 1 picture worths  1000 words, so....till next time...Happy Birthday to ME:D:D:D:D