Goodbye summer....for real

 It is rather painful when you experience the changing of the seasons, specially when your heart is involved. After a very quick and windy storm, I am  now very clear that the summer is not coming back. It was nice while it lasted, and while my heart was all in for the sunrise, the waves and the sunset. 

Like all seasons we need to be grateful for them happening, we need to be grateful for our experiences, and for the chance we had to see the nature changing her colors. 

In a way I am a bit sad cause I thought summer will last a bit longer, and autumn will taste sweeter, but it is not. 

It is time for someone else to enjoy the season of autumn, and I truly hope it will bring what the heart needs and desires. 

I will be fine, I will recover, cause this is not the first time season changes comes unexpectedly. 

I am thankful though, for things being clear, like a clear blue summer sky! 

Autumn...proper autumn, in and out

 Middle of October, and outside it is looking like the real autumn. The trees changed colors, the leaves are already falling, one after another. 

The sunset comes earlier, but seems sweeter in color, the temperature is also slowly dropping and giving the signs of a soon approaching winter season. 

How can you not fall in love with autumn and during autumn? 

Thinking it through, autumn is one of the most beautiful seasons, and it is one that is full of romance.

Yet, here I am just writing and dreaming about this autumn romance, that is not coming.

I would like it to come, to be awaken by the soft emotions of a newly found love, to tremble at thoughts of seeing him, while the colors of the nature are changing, while the setting is more beautiful day by day. 

I would like to have this experience again, it is such a long time since I did not experience the simple joy of giving and receiving love. 

A non reciprocated infatuation is somewhat painful, so I would exchange it at this time with a shared emotion, of attraction, care and why not love. 

There are some things in life that we can influence, but there also there are some, that we can not. And this is one of them....falling in love and have someone to reciprocate this feeling is not something that we can do. Otherwise I think I could be a good candidate to be able to influence others in reciprocating my love. 

But I am not...

Nevertheless, I will embrace love in any season, of the nature or of my life. 

It would have been nice to be in this one, pictures speak by themselves: 

Emotions...come and go...He is the one that stays....for ever

 My last post, was full of optimism and ideas, and someone you could sense the positive vibe that I was giving from my heart and from the feelings i was feeling. 

But one month later, and those feelings are somewhere behind, they already buried because logic kicked in, and because the Truth is more important. 

Although I had a wonderful time in the past weekend, when I was visiting the lovely county of Vrancea, where i actually got the chance to meet a bear, my emotions have significantly changed compared to the previous month.

It is interesting how the beliefs of one person, can change a mindset, and although I am curious to understand more, for now, this was like breaking a bubble that I was caught in. 

I am unclear if this was the real deal in terms of honesty, or it was just something they shared over food, like a discussion of a sort. In any case this was not so interesting, and I am now surprised by the way people think. 

I have learnt in school many things about natural selection, or selection in general. But i never thought that i could see it so clearly among people, and more specifically among Christians. I was under the impression that they are one of a kind people, always nice and ready to be supportive with anyone.

But it seems that was not at all true. They are like other people, or somewhat not like other people, focused on benefit. What can the other people bring to the group. I am not like that...i welcome anyone in the group , even if there is little or no benefit. 

I might not fit in groups such as this one, but sadly I was not expecting this kind of thinking in a churchy environment. Anyway, i need to manage all the disappointment, and forgive, and focus on the Truth. 

The Truth is that all people are equal, and all are important, cause they were created in the image of God. Because of that I am not allowed to make any such differences, and I need to be open and honest, and not hurting others, Whenever I am hurt, i should learn how to turn the other cheek as well. 

All in all, i am learning new things, some are painful, but who said, learning comes easy?