Lovely weekend

Seems like once again I ve started to get very busy with my day to day activities, and I have very little time to actually put my thoughts down here on a clear and white paper let s say.
It s been a busy week, and it is now a new one, that is planned to be the same.
This weekend was very special for two main reason, one is that it was my sister's birthday, and secondly because it was the wedding of my best friend.
It was excellent time, and pics will follow soon.

Celebration!

With no particular reason, I want to celebrate today , and be happy! :D
All is well , my family and friends are with me, and I am surrounded by God's grace, so why not celebrate?

Had very good conversations, clarified what was left to clarify with various people, and I have some small good news around my hearing:)

I am grateful! for everything!

Just lovely :)

Opportunity for being vulnerable

I ve ended my last post most probably in a melancholic or even sad tone, and this is due to the many thoughts and feelings I was having around the matter discussed.
I ve come to realize yesterday, that this brought also an opportunity , to be vulnerable with other persons, so that the point of view is easily understood.
And this is exactly what I ve done.
It took a bit of courage, and it took a moment to defeat the fear, and for sure it will take more in the following days, but all in all I think this is the right approach.
Giving the chance to speak up to various people in order to clarify misunderstandings and share thoughts.
Personally I feel much better now that I ve done this, but to be honest I m also thinking if I ve added burden to the other person with the things I ve said.
This is why a follow up conversation is required, and this is being planned as we speak, we will search and see the day and time for it.

For the rest of the things...I m still taking one day of the time, I am still there in my mind where I was last week, which is close to my God.
I am able to have some small amount of tears these days, most probably from the medicines, but this is also reassuring me that I am not dead inside:) and that I have some feelings.

My heart and my soul continues to be very very close to my Creator, and this gives me tremendous Joy. I wonder how to keep this state once I am back in my routine, work, home, friends and other activities.
I know for sure I do not want to loose what I ve gained so far.

Offended ...simple minded ....coherent

These are 3 things that I am feeling today, based just on a group discussion around God.
I thought I am an open person, but I am learning I am not really as I like to believe I am. I realized that when I lack arguments, I tend to become aggressive with the interlocutor, and this is not necessary adding any value to the discussion.
I also noticed that I did not like the discussion how it happened, and only hearing the same argument over and over again.
I felt offended, because I felt I was not heard, and every time I wanted to say something I received more and more questions.
I do not think a debate should contain only questions, and same answers, I think we should have the time to prepare and document our arguments as well.
I felt also simple minded, because I do not understand why I should focus on learning about theology that much instead of living my life close to Him! What is the matter with gathering information around God and arguments to justify my faith when I am not living with Him on a daily basis.
I was called non coherent just because I do not want to accept something that today I believe is not right... but I think I am coherent to my God.

It was tiring, and frustrating a bit to talk with someone that already has made his mind up, and anything I will say will anyway be too much of a short argument,

I m happy the discussion ended after a while, but I know I could have done better,
I will investigate the matter to see what comes out :)

Lord I just wish we receive healthy food from our teachers! Protect us from a wrong theology and guide us more to a life lived with You!

Special day for special people!

Seems like I ve been a bit busy for a couple of days, with some parties and some important events, but I am now back on track with small updates for me, on what happened in the meanwhile.

I had a special event, for two of my excellent friends, who got married yesterday, and I had a chance to be part of a lovely ceremony, and a great time for lunch with family.

She is just my best friend, and some of the posts on this blog have her included cause she is that special for me. It is a fresh relationship, and is one from which I ve learnt a lot , and I had a chance to grow personally and spiritually, I cherish very much the days and the things we spent together.

Now she is starting a  new life with her loved one, a man who is a great pair for her, and it feels like they were meant to be. It is very reassuring to see good things happen to people who are faithful and wait, for good things.

Also I had a chance to witness their marriage, and now they call us Good mother :)  I am very happy and responsible for them now, I need to prepare and see what is it that I need to do, to be able to support them in their new journey.

Enough with words, I m adding some pics :)

Simple , yet authentic

Today it was about simple things but at the same time authentic ones, like the picture at the end of this post. Seems like the lady who is in charge of this balcony is experiencing joy in simple things, such as taking care of flowers and land, to have such beautiful view.
I know she takes pride in this, and I also do :)
is nice to be home with my mum and the dogs, it s been such a long time since this happened, I am actually enjoying it.
With everything else, I am ok, surviving and taking each day of the time:)
tomorrow I will have more answers around what is going on with me, but I am keeping my hopes up, and things will be fine.
God is in control, nothing is happening outside His knowledge! that gives me good courage!

Home sweet home

My week in the hospital ended :) I am back home surrounded by happy things and family members, and my lovely dogs.
Is good to be back home to your comfort and surrounded by your things .
I am happy and I want to celebrate it! :d
Over and out! 

Heart beat

I have been thinking of this song all afternoon yesterday and it goes on today.
Is a Mandy Moore song called Only hope.

Makes me think of happy thoughts while I m going through the lyrics.
I am expriencing many positive emotions seems like I am full in my heart and I feel the beats of the heart strong and clear often times. Perhaps this is the medicine effect or something else.
I think I ll be going home tomorrow so my vacation will probably end .
Scary? A bit I ve strarted to like it here. We shall see.
All is well and God is providing in wonderful

ways.

Happy Monday

The countdown continues here in the retreat, this is day 7 and still 3 more days to go.
I kind of like it here , I like the routine nothing to complain, as I said I am adaptable or so it seems.
The results that I received so far are not as bad as expected, of course there are opportunities for improvement , but once again I am keeping myself up and positive.
I am enjoying the time of reading , introspection and prayer . Feels like is so much better than home . I am ready to move back to Floresti I think as i realized I have been missing my quite time.
I love her mum:( and I felt such lack of power today , but such sense of love when I ve heard her talking. Our mum s are some of the stronger creatures that God created. Lord I am so thankful for the fact that we have them and that we still have family. Help me cherish them and love thet with all  I am.
I ve started to dream a bit so I am re reading Mary Poppins, I use to read her when I was almost a teenager. I remembered this week I used to be fascinated with her so I want to relieve the moment. Also I had a nice memory while testing here, a memory from my childhood when I was actually sitting with friends , kids mostly, on the flat corridors between floors, with blankets and dolls playing:) cause outside was raining.
We use to sit hours on the tough floor and played different games. Neighbours probably smilled at us when crossing. Those were the pleasures of the day. Today there is not much difference. I realise the pleasure of the day is quite similar, friends and quite places.
This is simply what we need
And i bow in awe

Blessed Sunday

End of the week or beginning, depends on how you want to look at it. I am waiting for a new week full of new things and experiences. It has been a good one as well in a retreat this time we can say a national one.

I believe my hearing is coming back. I ve started to hear some noises in my left year, they are just like small small Seads cracking or perhaps they are in my mind only. We will see once they will take me to another audiometr. I had so many visitors while I was here , it was like everyone looked for me and it feelt nice. I felt loved by everyone and I am very grateful.

I know I will be fine as God is at work and everything is working as per his plan.

Cause yeah He has one!

I need just to remember one thing going further. Things are not about me , they are simply about Him and His glory.

I have some thinking to do around my life my investments in time and financials. Is time for another turn, this time is a new Dream

But a Dream for Him and no longer for me. I need guidance what does this mean , how can all be planned and started..but I know this one is for His Glory not for my needs.

God please help me get inspired and kick off the story of my life written and directed only by You. I will follow the script, cause I want to honor You, and magnify You!

In Jesus Name I thank you for everything and everyone you allowed in my earthly life.

Blessed beyond measure

Another day is almost gone, good Saturday spent still in the hospital we can say is day 5. I am adaptable it seems to various conditions so that is very good. Again I have a good wish for a shower and i think I will run tomorrow.
My mum and sis are a real blessing they have been so helpful these days. They are here every time helping me , bringing me comfort and good food.
It s been a very long time since I have felt so loved by them and in such a good harmony. This is a blessing. Then Gabi she is just a dear one , always smiling and doing her best.  She is good in nature, I start to appreciate her more and more as time goes by. I am fascinated by the good thoughts she has . Blessed here as well through grace and no merit.
Adelina amazing how sweet she can be this lady. She Is amazing. Full of love and always caring. I am humbled by the gifts God has given me in terms of relations. Feels like my heart is about to burst of good vibes. It is almost hurting when I see and feel the care of all these people. And these are just the ones from today. Did not even manage to count the blessings From yesterday and the day before and the day before.
Thank you!
As today was not special only for me but also for others I want to have a thought around love and miracles in love .The couple that got married today are just amazing, they are fit and perfect for each other and they were able to find themselves in the group and in the churh
There were 2 moments I ve liked most  in the online service today, the entrance of the bride, I think it was one of the best ones I be ever seen. The music was something I really enjoyed and the look on the groom who was so nervous and almost crying.
And then I loved when the bride sang to the loved one. It was such an intense moment of music and love that I barely could hold on to my tears .I wish them all the best and many blessings .
Somehow after their story and what I ve witnens today, I felt like there is something there for me too. That I deserve happiness and that God will provide .
Is not good for the man to be alone, this is why they made him a proper help. I need to believe this more often.
I was created for God and for someone down here. And in the right course of time He will discover everything ,
I will be waiting till then.

1st of June!!! Happy children's day!

The love of God is there every day through different means. Is a smile, a hand, or simply care from someone.
Today this day was about the love of God.
Finally had a chance to take a shower yei that felt awesome. Then spent time with my mum and sis and it was good one like in the past. This is quality time we had not experienced in a very long time.
Then rollercoaster of visits. People from work Gabi and Nuti , people from church Cristi, Coco, Cristina, Niki, Teo, Zisu, Vero.
Wow amazing!
I am blessed to be sorrounded with all these brothers and sisters. I felt God s family at work.
I am good and confident.
God is faithful with his children 😆