I ve ended my last post most probably in a melancholic or even sad tone, and this is due to the many thoughts and feelings I was having around the matter discussed.
I ve come to realize yesterday, that this brought also an opportunity , to be vulnerable with other persons, so that the point of view is easily understood.
And this is exactly what I ve done.
It took a bit of courage, and it took a moment to defeat the fear, and for sure it will take more in the following days, but all in all I think this is the right approach.
Giving the chance to speak up to various people in order to clarify misunderstandings and share thoughts.
Personally I feel much better now that I ve done this, but to be honest I m also thinking if I ve added burden to the other person with the things I ve said.
This is why a follow up conversation is required, and this is being planned as we speak, we will search and see the day and time for it.
For the rest of the things...I m still taking one day of the time, I am still there in my mind where I was last week, which is close to my God.
I am able to have some small amount of tears these days, most probably from the medicines, but this is also reassuring me that I am not dead inside:) and that I have some feelings.
My heart and my soul continues to be very very close to my Creator, and this gives me tremendous Joy. I wonder how to keep this state once I am back in my routine, work, home, friends and other activities.
I know for sure I do not want to loose what I ve gained so far.
I ve come to realize yesterday, that this brought also an opportunity , to be vulnerable with other persons, so that the point of view is easily understood.
And this is exactly what I ve done.
It took a bit of courage, and it took a moment to defeat the fear, and for sure it will take more in the following days, but all in all I think this is the right approach.
Giving the chance to speak up to various people in order to clarify misunderstandings and share thoughts.
Personally I feel much better now that I ve done this, but to be honest I m also thinking if I ve added burden to the other person with the things I ve said.
This is why a follow up conversation is required, and this is being planned as we speak, we will search and see the day and time for it.
For the rest of the things...I m still taking one day of the time, I am still there in my mind where I was last week, which is close to my God.
I am able to have some small amount of tears these days, most probably from the medicines, but this is also reassuring me that I am not dead inside:) and that I have some feelings.
My heart and my soul continues to be very very close to my Creator, and this gives me tremendous Joy. I wonder how to keep this state once I am back in my routine, work, home, friends and other activities.
I know for sure I do not want to loose what I ve gained so far.
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