Broken heart

A person suffers sometime from a broken heart. A heart can be broken by many factors. For sure number one reasons for having a broken heart is related to people, being them family members, or boyfriends, or girlfriends, or even parents. The second reasons for having a broken heart is disappointment and discouragement - often time we are disappointed in a certain situation, or due to certain causes, and we feel our hear ache, and then break due to the pain felt.
The third reason for which i believe someone might end with a broken heart, is the sadness within, is seeing how others are happy and how their dreams are fulfilled and realizing how their life is not as they would like it to be.
Today, specially today i feel like i am in this category and i have a broken heart because of this reason number 3. I look around to my friends, specially girls friends, and i see them happy in different stages of being women s - some of them flirting, some of them entering in relationship with man s, some of them engaged, some of them married, some of them pregnant and the remaining ones happy mum s.
And this is the moment when i feel my heart aching the most. Because although i have a great career, i do what i like most of time, i traveled the world and i continue to travel the country, seems like i am not at all happy or satisfied.
I always wish what i do not have, I wish to rejoice in the above things that would make me feel as well as a woman.
Now the question is...what does it mean to be a woman? I do not want to answer today to this question cause i am afraid of what will i find as answer, but this is something that i would like to tackle in of the future posts.
I wish for something to happen in my life, i wish to flourish as a woman being in one of the above stages! this is new for me! i did not know i want or miss that , or if i did i was not able until now to verbalize it as i am doing.
So therefore i am placing a formal request to the one an Only Provider of all things, with this in mind, and i need to keep my faith that He will work at this request.
The challenge is that He will not give me a registration number for the request...so ...i will not know when He or his team will work on it.
It s time for patience!!!

But i need to keep my faith!

Happy Birthday to MEEEE!!!

Every year as time goes by i am making this post to celebrate and commemorate my birthday.
This year i simply do it with a delay of 11 days. Some of you might ask why i still do it....well i just do not want to miss a chance to put my thoughts down as i age year after year, called a tradition or something else, does not matter, i really like to do this.
So on this 34th birthday o was actually in Carna , Dolj, i chose to be among people i knew but also some new people and it was a good celebration. Different than the one in the last 2 previous years, but yet with nice things.
I had received a very nice cake for this celebration, and i enjoyed that, i even had a candle and i made a wish. This year i remember it - my wish was to find someone in my life, so it was more of a romantic wish, now we will see further on if this wish will come true this year, next years or never, it s all in God s hands.
How do i feel aging? well i do not want to make a summary for this, i guess is the same feeling that everyone gets when they age. I want to be younger but i like where i am now. God blessed me with many people around me and many things to be happy with that age is just a number, and in the end is about serving Him, at that can be done at every age.
I am excited about this new chapter, i am sure there will be a lot to write about in the time that will come, as of now, i am good, i am happy and i am grateful for everything.
More about this...as always in pictures!!!!!

Stories from Carna, Dolj, Romania

I am back in Bucharest after a amazing week in Carna , Dolj county. If you are curious just google this location and get acquainted with some of the beauties there. This is a small village near the Danube, and it was affected by flood 10 years ago. Since then , every year a group of people from Northern Ireland, Cluj and Craiova go visit the people during Winter for a weekend and during summer for 1 entire week.
There have been many initiatives here in Carna, from rebuilding the houses that were no longer there due to the high waters, to the kids club, the football club and the teenagers support.
Despite the weather conditions, and the heat that i ve experienced this week, the rest was great!
Amazing to spend time with my brothers and sisters, and to worship God but also to practically help others. It was a very intense week, full of dynamic activities, and more than that, a week who took me back in time when i was one of those teenagers in search for God.
I remembered and celebrated the fact that there was an encounter i had with Him, and that i am therefore saved, from my earlier life but also from my sin s.
There are not enough words to share what i have experienced and what was that triggered me to consider maybe to go again back to Carna, i ll add some of the pictures soon.
I praise the Lord, and i ask Him to give me more His eyes to see all the simple needs people have.
It was healing at a spiritual level, and i am very grateful!