Last post for the month of July

I guess this is the last post for the month of July.
What can i say?>
things are still the same, i am doing the same things, it seems like i am this Rappunzel girl from the Disney movie. I do the same things over and over again.
Today i was spontaneous though: after office i came and pick my Joy and went for a walk in the center, near the castle where i had a nice ice cream, and then we came home, i left her in the house and i went to Carrefour to buy some things for the house. I ended up spending a lot of money, buying a lot of things for Joy, and two pair of shoes for me. I just hope that these shoes will be ok, and comfortable, so let's hope.
What else? At work things are ok, let s say, there are some things which i do not really like, but overall i should not complain so much. Joy is growing and she is a very good dog. As good as she can be, as clearly she still has problems with doing her "things" outside. But other then this she is amazing. I am so happy that i have her, not sure what would i have done without her.
now to close for all you reader, remember:

All to Jesus I surrender, all to Him i freely give
I surrender all
I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Saviour
I surrender all

THANK YOU Lord, for making me your child.
Thank you Thank you!

Loneliness hits again

Sunday mid afternoon, and i am at home. Weather looks really nice outside, but still it is too hot to go and roam around. So is better to sit inside, and watch some movies, read or listen to Abba :)
Yes these are my days. Although i am constantly motivating myself that it is great, the fact that i am here in Lublin alone, and i have my own place, my own dog, my own life, oao i am so satisfied. And this motivation works for some days, one, two, three even for a week. But then....one morning you wake up with an emptiness in your heart and soul, and you realise you are all alone.
I am a people person, i like people around me, and here, i miss them a lot. I am tired to talk in English and not in romanian, i miss my friends, i miss going out for a drink, and ice cream or karaoke. I miss spending time with my family. But, it is not time yet:).
This is a great experience i think. It will teach me to deal with the lonliness, and to start feeling happy with myself only.
I need to focus my attention more towards God.
I know He loves me, i know He is here with me every day, when i am happy or disappointed or alone, but still...it seems i still miss people.
Interesting no? It should not be like that.
God please help me in leaning on You when lonliness comes to me. There were a lot of people who made it, they sat alone for some time and time and time, and they become better persons that they were, God i want to be transformed by Your hand.
I am sorry for being such a spoiled kid. I know that You have give me all that i need here in Poland and still sometimes i am not happy or gratefull. God i know that all that i do not have here is because it is not needed yet. I know that You have a plan for me, and your plan is that I stay here for the moment, alone, feeling and knowing You better.
This is what i will focus on God. Knowing You better:) I think this is my opportunity.
Thank you for giving me this chance. Please forgive me ...

Happy Birthday ....to me:)

Well another year has gone by, and I actually didn't felt it. I am now 28 years old:) What can i say? I am old ...in a way. In another way I am still young and in love with life, and with nature and with people and with God.
Looking back it is amazing how God has guide me through life. My life was not at all easy, but now looking back i had so many blessings from his hand. When i had my 20th birthday i was in Frankenberg Germany, now after 8 years i am in Lublin, Poland:). In the meanwhile i visited Germany, Italy, Hungary, France, India and UK. Who would knew? That a poor girl, from a modest family will have so many blessings?
Thank you God! Thank you for taking care of my every step in all these years, thank you for giving me the right people to be sourrounded by. Thank you for giving me HEALTH. Thank you for giving me all the things i've needed. Thank you for you love that you give me every day.
I am amazed when i look at my life. And i know that in every step i took, You were there guiding me in choosing the right and not the wrong :)
Thank you!
Indeed now my life is kind of strange, as it is a period of knowing myself, and understanding life in a diffrent way then in Romania. Why? I am really lonely here in Lublin. I have few friends, which actually i am not sure if they are my friends or just people that i know. I am alone with my dog, and with God.
Sometimes i even think that depression might get me, but i do not believe in this simptom so i will not have it.
However a point that is almost getting to me is regarding relationships and love. Sometimes i find myself thinking to much about it. I would like to start a family someday. And in my plans this should happen before i am 30 years old:) So it is the final countdown. But as i said this is what is in my plans. Maybe in God's plan for me, the situation looks different. Maybe what i am doing now, or what i will do in the future will be more important than love, and building a family.
I need to learn again and to keep this lesson and have complete faith in God's plan for me.
Clearly they are better then mine, as He is the only one able to see the entire picture. So let's see what God will bring into my life:).
Thank you for being my God!