Pause, relax, repeat.
This is exactly how the past months have been for me. Low on energy to write and to expose my feelings and thoughts on a white piece of paper. Busy again travelling the world in a poor intent to leave the pain behind and to focus on brighter skies.
Reality check- is not working.
No matter how hard you try to run away from your pain, she is like a foot print; is there at every step waiting to be acknowledged, waiting to be heard. The curiosity to that is that if you start hearing it, it will go away, or better it will fade away, not for ever, but for short periods of time, till again she will come back to ask for the tribute.
This is my learning in this journey. Every time the pain comes, do not ignore it, give it time and space to appear and let it contain you and your emotions. It is the healthy way of processing pain, specially emotional one.
This season - autumn, is the best season to do this, it is the most beautiful time when nature is dressed in wonderful colors, ready to contain all your feelings. You can easily find a spot to just feel all your emotions, that can take the colors of the leaves that surround you: some still green, some yellow, some passionately red and then some brown...and even black.
I love the light and the color of the fall season, it is one of my favorites.
