Privacy again

Sometimes back I was craving for privacy and now , now I have it and it feels strange. Not sure why we as humans are always so strange. We want one thing and then when we get it we want another thing. Can we be so selfish?
Looks like I am like that. I finally found an apartment where I am alone, it can not get better is just perfect.
Today is my second night in it, and i like it but at the same time, i feel strange a little bit.
Maybe I just need to get used to it.
Anyway I m happy. Looks like my life is taking again an interesting course, and I hope that it is for the best.
I am trying to have also a private life besides work, and I hope that will be successful as well.
What else?

not much these days, looks like i am struggling to find the word.
Good news is almost December, so Christmas will be here
Happy for that!!!!

Welcome to the darkside ...

It s true. I ve reached to the conclusion that what people were telling me was true. From time to time, sometimes more often, I reach to my dark side, and there are only black things, thoughts and problems. So the question is : is this all in my mind? or i really have a dark side?
And the curiosity that I have is what would another person do if they would be in my place?
30 years old, leaving with your family, having very little privacy, no space to sing, pray or do anything else....
Is it just a childish and selfish thing the fact that I want a place of my own?
I believe the darkness and unhappiness comes from here. I have a good job, yet I am not happy with it....so why?

What else do I need, and why I am being selfish?

this is a meditation thought for this week!