Closing comments...for now

I just took a moment to go through some of the posts from the past.

And i ve realized that i was under lot of stress when i was in Lublin and I was feeling very lonely.

The same thing happen to me here in Cluj

I find myself feeling lonely even if i have my friend in the same city or at a phone call away.

I miss the privacy and independence of my apartment in Lublin.

I miss just being myself and Joy.

I know i am selfish and ungrateful, but here in my home I lack space, intimacy and privacy

I am waiting for something but i m not sure even for what. I ve said i ll move out but it looks like i am not strong enough to do this

I ve said i ll buy a house, not even that i am able to do so far

So what should I do?

I m not sure yet.

I ll carry on with the prayer, is a little bit ironic, the entire situation:)

Good night!