Another post ...while we keep waiting

    I miss you every moment, seems like this big house is empty without you. Time is passing so slow, and we do not know what to do, and how to fill the hours in your absence. We clean and we clean the house, like this could ever change the way we feel, or if it would replace you. 

We try to keep our minds occupied, until we hear some good news about you.

The reality is that we are not desiring any bad news in your regard, only good news. 

Everyone is keen to know how are you, everyone is praying and sending you good thoughts and they are all waiting for you to get better and come back home. 

I am sorry for this suffering, I am sorry that you had to go through this, and so abruptly. 

I am not clear why God would allow this to happen to you, and all the rest...I think I will only find out when I will be on the other side. And I hope I will be there with you, and not just alone, or with mum (if a miracle happens). 

I am praying that God would meet you in this trial, and that you would feel comforted by Him, and secured in His hand. 

If I am thinking, I know you must be in terrible pain, and I pray for the doctor and nurses and for all the people around you to treat you properly and to help you manage this pain. I know your mind must be terrible stressed, and your anxiety is overwhelming. 

I pray for that to decrease, not sure if is humanly possible, in such a situation, but I am asking God to help with this, and to do something so that you feel the love we have for you, the care that everyone has for you, and the fact that we all want you to get better and come home. 

Perhaps you are thinking about death, and if you are there. I pray this would not frighten you, but rather get you thinking about God and about us. I pray for courage in this trial, I pray for power to fight and to come back better and alive against all odds. 

I know how strong and resilient you are! so i am asking you and God to help you fight this! and I am asking God to delay this illnesses that you have that can be lethal in your case. 

I want to celebrate life together with you! I am sorry for all the times when I did not celebrate life. I am sorry for the times when I put others on the first place instead of you, I am sorry for not being the sister you wanted. But I can change, I can be better, and I can love you more with acts of love, rather than just with words.

I love you, and I always had. You are my hero, you are my big sister, the one that endured so many things in this life, and now, she can overcome this. You are strong and stubborn, use both and God's help to overcome this, please. 

We miss you, and we want you back! Our lives are just empty in your absence, and it seems like a big purpose of life is gone...for the moment, till you come back. 

Remember, that you are in our thoughts, prayers and wishes to come back and be with us for many years ahead!