It is very hard to be part of any ministry in church or outside the church. I feel like the tears are coming into my eyes because I do not understand what is my part in this? I am not clear why am I part of this ministry if I feel that none of my gifts are being used. I am just a simple secretary, and I am not bringing anything to the table.
Is not that I do not want, but it is simply because I do not have room at the table. The table is filled already, by the time that we come together, things are already agreed. So then I question, what is the point of the meeting, and more specifically, what am I to do in this group?
I feel like I do not belong here :( , and that makes me sad. It seems that the leadership is clear, perhaps I can step out, and do something different. Perhaps go back to the youth group, or do something else.
As far as I know from leadership, this is not the way a vision is set.
A vision is built together with the team, or at least the team is consulted, which is not the case.
I do not resonate with with the style of the discussion, with the way of communication , or with the surprise of the things. I think that they do not like me, and perhaps I also do not like them.
It is amazing to see that I finally found a place, that I do not fit in.
Please Father...guide me .
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