Worry less, enjoy more

Sometime back i was pretty worried about this trip with some friends, if i can call them friends, as i did not knew them very well. In the end it all went fine, i ve managed to connect with some of them very well, but not with all. I had also some very nice adventures, i ve managed to take a very long walk to be able to see the surroundings of the zone, including a very nice monastery.  I also experienced many feelings in this trip, so i think i am more in touch with my emotions than i use to be. I have experienced a different palette of emotions from joy, excitement and content to fear, anger, frustration and disappointment.

Almost all these feelings were related to one person, and one main discussion we had. The thing is that i am still unsure what triggered me : the fact that this was said, or if it was true? Or maybe the fact that i was taken by surprise and this was not the scene of such a discussion. 

Anyway, i was very sad, and upset by the conversation. And i think this relationship will most probably not recover anymore, although i would like it to recover. But what is done is done. I think for that person it was a bit unacceptable my behavior, but at the same time for me as well it was a bit rude, and it kind of hurt me. 

What i ve learnt from this experience is that i need to worry less, and enjoy more. I spent many days thinking about this trip and worrying about how things will be, and what kind of discussions will happen, but in the end, it did not matter, cause things anyway happened, as they happened, and i could not do anything about them. 

Next time, i can just take the trip and see what happens while i m there. All in all it was a discovery episode. I have discovered myself more through that conversation...and i learnt stuff about me and about others. 

I hope to get more chances with this person, to be able to fix the relationship if it is broken, and i hope we really moved on and there are no hard feelings. But i do not know that...i just see that the communication is pretty rare, but it was like this before the trip as well. 

So i have no clue. I am looking forward for other learnings and interactions in various groups, and i hope for the best! Worry less, enjoy more! my motto! :)