Good to be back in front of a blank page. What was more tough is gone now. Things have been clarified. Lots of emotions when spring is arriving. The situation now is much more clearer. I am not fully accepting it, but is a work in progress situation. I was longing for a different answer, i was longing for another option, but this did not happen. And for sure is for the best. Looking at myself with a critical eye, i am not fully ready for what can happen. And i need to continue with this preparation.
At the same time on the other side the situation is blurry as well, not ready there as well. In such situations the first option is the most secure one, and the easiest one.
Being in Bucharest is awaking all my feelings. While I was in Cluj with friends and family my feelings were in a latency phase, very softly reminding my heart and my soul of something.
Here instead, i experience joy differently, i experience sadness and loneliness in a very different way.
And i kind of like it, as it give me time for a more in depth introspection.
I am overall well, i am content. I have the privacy i ve always wanted, i am able to do whatever i want and when i want. I am able to talk to God with a loud voice in the morning and in the evening.
I can leave my things all over in the house, and i ll find them in the exact same place.
I like this kind of living. i like the freedom i get.
It is a good day for science and will be a good period here in Bucharest.
career wise i m not really happy, and i m not sure what will happen next, but God is in control and he will set up the right framework for me.
:)
At the same time on the other side the situation is blurry as well, not ready there as well. In such situations the first option is the most secure one, and the easiest one.
Being in Bucharest is awaking all my feelings. While I was in Cluj with friends and family my feelings were in a latency phase, very softly reminding my heart and my soul of something.
Here instead, i experience joy differently, i experience sadness and loneliness in a very different way.
And i kind of like it, as it give me time for a more in depth introspection.
I am overall well, i am content. I have the privacy i ve always wanted, i am able to do whatever i want and when i want. I am able to talk to God with a loud voice in the morning and in the evening.
I can leave my things all over in the house, and i ll find them in the exact same place.
I like this kind of living. i like the freedom i get.
It is a good day for science and will be a good period here in Bucharest.
career wise i m not really happy, and i m not sure what will happen next, but God is in control and he will set up the right framework for me.
:)
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