What 2014 will bring?
What was the fruit of 2013?
Questions for a time of introspection, a time to look inside, and think about the past, present and future.
I ve realized that because I do not live the present and i do not dare to see a great future for me, i often live in the past. I feed myself from the past, from different pictures, states of mind, emotions, and feelings. And that is working. But this year....I would like to do things differently. I would like to give me time, to loose the expectation.
The trauma from my past, is still hunting me, I do not believe a deserve to be happy, and when I am, I am just afraid that the feeling my go away, and something bad will happen. 13 years went by, and still that sadness is still inside, still when i look back i am afraid and tears come into my eyes. Why?
Why I just can not put the fact aside and carry on with my life to be happy?
How, how I should explain this to others, to my Boss for example who is keen to know why sometimes i am down....well guess what...it was not easy.
Anyway ...this year is not about resolutions, is not about what I will achieve by 2014 in material things, 2014 is all about INTROSPECTION and discovering myself, building myself, having the chance to dream a little, enjoying things for me and not for others, building and growing in the relationship with God, searching more, and finding that happiness within.
2013 was a year in which the word that followed me was " cercetare =introspection"
2014 will be the year in which the word that i would like to follow is the same " cercetare = searching for God"
Interesting analogy.
So what can I say - HAPPY NEW YEAR!
What was the fruit of 2013?
Questions for a time of introspection, a time to look inside, and think about the past, present and future.
I ve realized that because I do not live the present and i do not dare to see a great future for me, i often live in the past. I feed myself from the past, from different pictures, states of mind, emotions, and feelings. And that is working. But this year....I would like to do things differently. I would like to give me time, to loose the expectation.
The trauma from my past, is still hunting me, I do not believe a deserve to be happy, and when I am, I am just afraid that the feeling my go away, and something bad will happen. 13 years went by, and still that sadness is still inside, still when i look back i am afraid and tears come into my eyes. Why?
Why I just can not put the fact aside and carry on with my life to be happy?
How, how I should explain this to others, to my Boss for example who is keen to know why sometimes i am down....well guess what...it was not easy.
Anyway ...this year is not about resolutions, is not about what I will achieve by 2014 in material things, 2014 is all about INTROSPECTION and discovering myself, building myself, having the chance to dream a little, enjoying things for me and not for others, building and growing in the relationship with God, searching more, and finding that happiness within.
2013 was a year in which the word that followed me was " cercetare =introspection"
2014 will be the year in which the word that i would like to follow is the same " cercetare = searching for God"
Interesting analogy.
So what can I say - HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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