I had a post called Merry Christmas in advance, but it looks like I ve missed the chance at posting it right on time. No worries, I am posting it today, the 26th of December, 02nd day of Christmas, and my mum's birthday.
Well what can I say? This year very special Christmas , in a new home, alone, which was good at the beginning but then it started to feel awkard.
The idea is that I was feeling very bad i left my family alone on Christmas Eve.
The plan was to go caroling with some of my work colleagues which we did, but in the same time I felt like I was again failing on God's will for me, as the people from church went caroling to several hospitals and some other people.
So I kind of wanted to be with them, but in the end, as my colleagues were insisting as always - i made a choice, which might have not been the right one.
Basically we went to 3 places:) where we ate a lot, and at 3 AM we were so tired so we did not reach my place, where everything was ready for the guys. I was disappointed and once again I ve learned that I really need to be more selfish, and to stop caring about what others want, but about what I want as well.
I can not complain that the evening was bad, but i can not say it was perfect as well.
My only wish would have been to sing more about Jesus, and to carol more, specially in this time of year.
Tomorrow I m heading to Oltenia for 2 nights where I ll be caroling, so this should support my wish;)
More details and posts once I come back,
Enjoy the celebration!
Well what can I say? This year very special Christmas , in a new home, alone, which was good at the beginning but then it started to feel awkard.
The idea is that I was feeling very bad i left my family alone on Christmas Eve.
The plan was to go caroling with some of my work colleagues which we did, but in the same time I felt like I was again failing on God's will for me, as the people from church went caroling to several hospitals and some other people.
So I kind of wanted to be with them, but in the end, as my colleagues were insisting as always - i made a choice, which might have not been the right one.
Basically we went to 3 places:) where we ate a lot, and at 3 AM we were so tired so we did not reach my place, where everything was ready for the guys. I was disappointed and once again I ve learned that I really need to be more selfish, and to stop caring about what others want, but about what I want as well.
I can not complain that the evening was bad, but i can not say it was perfect as well.
My only wish would have been to sing more about Jesus, and to carol more, specially in this time of year.
Tomorrow I m heading to Oltenia for 2 nights where I ll be caroling, so this should support my wish;)
More details and posts once I come back,
Enjoy the celebration!
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