This is my first Easter officially at home after 3 years of wondering in Bucharest.
My first Easter was actually in the mountains, with snow still, 2 years ago, my second one, if I am not wrong was here in Cluj, but for a very short time, as then I went back to Bucharest, and this is my third one, which is full @home, in Cluj .
It was really a good time with my family and some friends. I felt the presence of God in our family, and I hope my other family members felt it as well, it was nice to clean, cook, and paint eggs together with my mum, I think we have not done this together in a very long while.
I am very happy cause the Dream - part II is ongoing, and almost completed, I am very grateful for this amazing gift, which even though is not mine yet, it will be if I survive 30 years of credit:) makes me feel really good, and I am actually looking forward to move there and enjoy the work and the investments done in this dream.
We need to see what will be the next dream about. Will it be around building up a family? around a business, or perhaps something that is fully new, and that I am not foreseeing? For sure God is already at work, preparing the best for me, the thing that will please Him the most, I just can get excited about it.
All in all it was a good time spent, in church as well, with very good discussions around Jesus , the Cross and the Resurrection. I love being in church and listening to the sermons, I like to hear with great attention what the preacher is saying, I am really all eyes and ears on his words. I particularly liked this time the songs that were sung during the various sermons, I felt like they really went well with the preaching and they were right on my heart.
Not sure why today , and I think Friday a certain sadness approached me, leading me to take some decisions, that I am not sure were the right ones, but nevertheless they are already taken.
I need to think twice before reacting on my impulsivity, and also I need to question my motivation more than I am actually questioning it, as it seems like the things I do come from a wrong motivation, for example the decision today. This morning some things happened, I ve been part of some conversations, and based on these one, out of frustration, I took some decisions that are not the best.
The challenge is that deep inside the frustration is still correlated with something that is fully depending on me to change. I have limits and some limits should be broken with hard work, but to be honest I am too lazy, or things are not happening as I wish them too, so this is why I am complaining a lot.
The other thing is that I have not made my mind up around this other thing. Is like there is an empty table, and a large one. On this table there are some apples, but there are no great ones. So this is when I am looking and I am seeing the same red apple that whoever is around the table can see. This apple is not only red, so with great pigment, but also has the right shape, and promises a very good taste. So I somehow find myself longing for it, not necessary because he is the apple I want, but rather because I know that someone else, who is at the same table will see the apple and will want it as well. And this is why I make my mind up thinking that I want the apple, when actually I am not sure I do.
And this takes me to other tensed thoughts or even conversations with other people around this apple.
I bet this is confusing for someone who might read this, but as mentioned in other posts, this blog is more for me, so I do not really care that much if people do not understand the posts completely, I know I do and they are helping me.
Closing with one song I love:) and of course some pics:
My first Easter was actually in the mountains, with snow still, 2 years ago, my second one, if I am not wrong was here in Cluj, but for a very short time, as then I went back to Bucharest, and this is my third one, which is full @home, in Cluj .
It was really a good time with my family and some friends. I felt the presence of God in our family, and I hope my other family members felt it as well, it was nice to clean, cook, and paint eggs together with my mum, I think we have not done this together in a very long while.
I am very happy cause the Dream - part II is ongoing, and almost completed, I am very grateful for this amazing gift, which even though is not mine yet, it will be if I survive 30 years of credit:) makes me feel really good, and I am actually looking forward to move there and enjoy the work and the investments done in this dream.
We need to see what will be the next dream about. Will it be around building up a family? around a business, or perhaps something that is fully new, and that I am not foreseeing? For sure God is already at work, preparing the best for me, the thing that will please Him the most, I just can get excited about it.
All in all it was a good time spent, in church as well, with very good discussions around Jesus , the Cross and the Resurrection. I love being in church and listening to the sermons, I like to hear with great attention what the preacher is saying, I am really all eyes and ears on his words. I particularly liked this time the songs that were sung during the various sermons, I felt like they really went well with the preaching and they were right on my heart.
Not sure why today , and I think Friday a certain sadness approached me, leading me to take some decisions, that I am not sure were the right ones, but nevertheless they are already taken.
I need to think twice before reacting on my impulsivity, and also I need to question my motivation more than I am actually questioning it, as it seems like the things I do come from a wrong motivation, for example the decision today. This morning some things happened, I ve been part of some conversations, and based on these one, out of frustration, I took some decisions that are not the best.
The challenge is that deep inside the frustration is still correlated with something that is fully depending on me to change. I have limits and some limits should be broken with hard work, but to be honest I am too lazy, or things are not happening as I wish them too, so this is why I am complaining a lot.
The other thing is that I have not made my mind up around this other thing. Is like there is an empty table, and a large one. On this table there are some apples, but there are no great ones. So this is when I am looking and I am seeing the same red apple that whoever is around the table can see. This apple is not only red, so with great pigment, but also has the right shape, and promises a very good taste. So I somehow find myself longing for it, not necessary because he is the apple I want, but rather because I know that someone else, who is at the same table will see the apple and will want it as well. And this is why I make my mind up thinking that I want the apple, when actually I am not sure I do.
And this takes me to other tensed thoughts or even conversations with other people around this apple.
I bet this is confusing for someone who might read this, but as mentioned in other posts, this blog is more for me, so I do not really care that much if people do not understand the posts completely, I know I do and they are helping me.
Closing with one song I love:) and of course some pics:
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