They say I need a detailed and in depth conversation with myself. Is this true?
Do i need to look inside again and again?
I would need to face again this monster which is sadness? Maybe I should see a doctor, cause this sadness is not right, I should be happy, dreams are setting down, everything is working fine, but still I feel an empty space in my body and in my heart.
I feel a void and I am not sure what I need to fill it in...maybe is love, God, attention, care ? what????
Every year around my birthday i get a little bit sad, but now, this year feels like the worst of them all. I feel like i am alone, i have no real friends, I just have people around me, people that use me for various things, and that s it.
Is this feeling normal? Am i the only one having it?
The strange part, is that I am not able to cry, i think this is something that could help me, just have a moment, of crying.
I was reading yesterday evening, an article, where it was mentioned that people who suffered a trauma, will have repercusions throughout their lifes, Is this the case with my life?
I really can not put in the past what happened to me, to us?
You never realize how much something hurt untill sometime after, for me is 14 years and i feel it now, differently than I ever did. Maybe that is the rootcause, that is the source of all what is happening now.
No, i am not having dark thoughts, i think that I am an optimistic person, but am i? Or I m just encouraging myself to be? cause that s what everyone expects from me?
Well this was a discussion, between me , myself and I, and it helped, a little,
Will help more,
All will heal,
Heart, Body and Soul.
I sure believe this, and i know there is a Healer who is taking care of me. The problem is that is is coming towards me, and i run slowly but i run from Him. I need You , I need You badly. You are what can fill the void inside me, You are the center of my life, and that should bring me happinnees, cause I ll leave for ever with You
Help me, help me find myself again, and make me run back to You, cause Lord There is None like You!
Do i need to look inside again and again?
I would need to face again this monster which is sadness? Maybe I should see a doctor, cause this sadness is not right, I should be happy, dreams are setting down, everything is working fine, but still I feel an empty space in my body and in my heart.
I feel a void and I am not sure what I need to fill it in...maybe is love, God, attention, care ? what????
Every year around my birthday i get a little bit sad, but now, this year feels like the worst of them all. I feel like i am alone, i have no real friends, I just have people around me, people that use me for various things, and that s it.
Is this feeling normal? Am i the only one having it?
The strange part, is that I am not able to cry, i think this is something that could help me, just have a moment, of crying.
I was reading yesterday evening, an article, where it was mentioned that people who suffered a trauma, will have repercusions throughout their lifes, Is this the case with my life?
I really can not put in the past what happened to me, to us?
You never realize how much something hurt untill sometime after, for me is 14 years and i feel it now, differently than I ever did. Maybe that is the rootcause, that is the source of all what is happening now.
No, i am not having dark thoughts, i think that I am an optimistic person, but am i? Or I m just encouraging myself to be? cause that s what everyone expects from me?
Well this was a discussion, between me , myself and I, and it helped, a little,
Will help more,
All will heal,
Heart, Body and Soul.
I sure believe this, and i know there is a Healer who is taking care of me. The problem is that is is coming towards me, and i run slowly but i run from Him. I need You , I need You badly. You are what can fill the void inside me, You are the center of my life, and that should bring me happinnees, cause I ll leave for ever with You
Help me, help me find myself again, and make me run back to You, cause Lord There is None like You!
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