Indeed i ve realized one thing.I am not there yet, and solitude is helping you a lot.
For example, when I was in Lublin Poland I use to remember all important things: such as birthdays, other holidays, days important for me, and for my friends.
Now when I am back in Romania and back to my life I do not remember too many things, and it is really sad. Because for example this year I did not stop for a moment to celebrate my 2nd year since I ve chose Jesus.
Yeah, shame on me, but actually now as i am trying to remember where I was on that day I do not remember. Was it Spain? or Portugal? Or maybe Italy
anyhow, I am happy that i have 2 years in God, but reality is that I am living my life still in the old way. My heart is changed but only in some portion.
I am not keen to read God's word, or to pray that much, or to spend time with christian people.
actually i am just involved in my job TOOO MUCH.
And i am not sure how to stop doing this.
Is it something that I need to give up in order to be able to be more focused on my personal and spiritual life?
And that is the open question.
Easter is almost here, and my heart is closed; sometimes i feel like i am no feeling anything - that i am just a robot i do not feel love, sadness, i do not cry enough...i do not feel compassion...i ve become a strange person selfish and angry, focused on driving a business which is not even my own.
Well this is just a post to commemorate 2 years "with Jesus" and 5 years in my actual job ( or i should say life? )
For example, when I was in Lublin Poland I use to remember all important things: such as birthdays, other holidays, days important for me, and for my friends.
Now when I am back in Romania and back to my life I do not remember too many things, and it is really sad. Because for example this year I did not stop for a moment to celebrate my 2nd year since I ve chose Jesus.
Yeah, shame on me, but actually now as i am trying to remember where I was on that day I do not remember. Was it Spain? or Portugal? Or maybe Italy
anyhow, I am happy that i have 2 years in God, but reality is that I am living my life still in the old way. My heart is changed but only in some portion.
I am not keen to read God's word, or to pray that much, or to spend time with christian people.
actually i am just involved in my job TOOO MUCH.
And i am not sure how to stop doing this.
Is it something that I need to give up in order to be able to be more focused on my personal and spiritual life?
And that is the open question.
Easter is almost here, and my heart is closed; sometimes i feel like i am no feeling anything - that i am just a robot i do not feel love, sadness, i do not cry enough...i do not feel compassion...i ve become a strange person selfish and angry, focused on driving a business which is not even my own.
Well this is just a post to commemorate 2 years "with Jesus" and 5 years in my actual job ( or i should say life? )
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