Well, the above picture says it all. I have a small tree, who is meant to fill the space in my lonely existence here in Lublin.
The days at home are passing very very slow, i feel so alone. I am no longer scared in the house or stressed like i used to be, now i am just ALONE. I fell alone, and i am alone.
I am counting the days, 11 to go:) and i ll go home again for holidays. I can not wait.
Another kick today, so finally another chapter of my life is closed. A chapter of lost affection and maybe even love, i will never know. But maybe it is better like this. At least i am not the one standing against other people happiness.
The right person will come for me too, only no one knows when. I really wanted this person to be the one, but clearly is not.
I am to weak, i get involved so quick, i trust people, and get hurt. Not once, not twice but several times now.
I wish i would be more cold, and i wish things would be the other way around.
But God, who sets all the things in the right place, will give me another opportunity, more reachable for me.
God, please help me out with this,
I am asking you with all my heart,
thank you!
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